My friend Simone asked me what I was going to do now that the Frivols were all finished. “What do you have planned for 2019?” she asked, oh so sweetly.
Let me review:
2011-2014 I worked on my Lollypop Trees quilt.
2014-2015 I worked on Shine: The Circles Quilt.
2016 I did not one, but TWO, Quilt-A-Longs (Halloween and Christmas).
2017 I had shoulder surgery and it seemed to be the year of small quilts.
2018 was the year of the Frivols, plus the year of working in Painter’s Palette Solids.
It’s time for a bit of introspection and reflection here.
I am feeling a bit bereft because I feel like I have nothing in the pipeline, nothing in the brain for creativity. I see everyone’s IG feed, their blogs, I go to quilt shows and there’s just no sparking going on. Awol Erizku, a contemporary artist, titled one of his paintings “When You See Too Much, You See Nothing;” perhaps this is what’s happening here.
And so the “what now?” kind of morphs into “Nobody’s at Home in My Head” in spite of the fact that I have successfully slain the Frivols Tins that have been living rent-free in my closet for two years. I recognize that this “I-am-a-useless-cretin” thinking often crops up after an extended period of making, of pedal-to-the-metal.
I am happy that I finished my goal of making all those quilts, but really, I am mostly happy that I am finished with Frivols. It has been a year of learning, a year of exploring different palettes and fabric styles, but mostly, it has been a year of sewing someone else’s creativity and living in some else’s quilty head. That last part has been the hardest. I was pretty excited right off the bat to make these but after about the thousandth HST, or another tin of colored print fabrics to be augmented with a background of white…I had to dig deep to finish up this project.
It’s like when someone wants you to make them a quilt, and you agree, all the while thinking in your head I can do anything but one of those Star Wars panels, and then they show up at your house with Star Wars panels, it’s torture to get that quilt made. I wonder if this happens sometimes with our UFOs, if all of a sudden our interest or our tastes change, so what was once interesting, is now banal and you just can’t stand to work on it.
But I’m happy to be finished. I set a goal, I powered through it, and I appreciate all the cheering from my readers. You made a difference, as always.
I will donate some of these quilts to the Neonatal Quilt Project in our Guild and to the group that gives quilts to the foster kids who have aged out. I will gift a few more, and my favorites will live at our house.
Thank you all!